What have I learned? That relationship's really suck If you're like me. I'm... I don't know how I should say this, but, I'm different.. I've been threw so much heartache.. to the point where I've just stopped caring.. If it comes around.. then great I guess. But I've just had... not so much luck at all. I can understand to an extent, I'm not the most attractive individual of all.. And I may not look like a softie, but deep inside i am, and i'm just getting more and more tired with each passing day.. So much mental abuse.. I'm on the edge of giving everything i have, up. I just would love to be me, with that special someone.. I hate like... being with someone, but knowing that its only a temporary thing.. I don't do those well.. I need to be with someone knowing they'll always be there for me, forever. A guy that wouldn't lie to me, Someone that would just.. just talk with me.. Even though i'm probably living in my own little dream world.. well.. It is my dream, To just be with someone that accept's me and understand's me.. I sound desperate to you all.. But in a sense, I am.
Why is it that I always have to go through this every single time i end up in some type of 'long-term' "i think he's the one" relationship? It's just like it's never meant to be and there's nothing I can do about it. EVERY time.. I wish I could just feel something REAL, and not be lied to anymore. I hope.. one day it will all just change and It really happens.. I'd smile more, If I just had a reason to..
